The Second Class Citizen Speaks

“They are the ones who prefer listening to speaking, reading to partying; who innovate and create but dislike self-promotion; who favor working on their own over brainstorming in teams. Although they are often labeled “quiet,” it is to introverts that we owe many of the great contributions to society — from Van Gogh’s sunflowers to the invention of the personal computer.”

 

Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can’t Stop Talking by Susan Cain

 

 

 

 

So why are the introverts being shunned by the world like it's some disease that will catch on if you stand too close to one? Why are introverts being perceived as not contributing, not fun and a whole long list of not-s? Is it society's fault? The culture? The nation?

 

Just for the fun of it; show me a handbook or a single proof that introverts are to be treated as second-class citizens - if you can find one.

 

Life doesn't even have a handbook.

Makes me wonder how on earth did people decide to treat introverts as lowly beings.

In My Own Backyard

I tried my hands on writing seriously a couple of days ago. By serious, I mean writing a piece and submitting it to a third party. 

Getting started was harder than I thought. It was supposed to be written in bahasa and boy, I didn't expect it to be so difficult. After a while, I started writing in English to get the idea flowing and once i have formed a story-line in my head, I started writing in bahasa. Lo and behold, it was done in an hour!

I received an email from the relevant party the very next day with positive notes and now we wait. Keeping my fingers crossed for a good feedback :)

The Pain We Endured

People don't know this but my heart is a fragile little thing. I could never stand a heartache. Give me physical pain any time and I will endure it but heartaches; I can never take.

God has plans for us all. He tests us and our strengths by bestowing us with challenges but only those that we are able to shoulder. He will not burden us with more than we can ever handle.

I believe for that reason alone, God has given me the sickness to live with because He knows I will be able to swallow it whole. That's also why, I believe that He did not tests me with challenges and hurdles in relationships between family and friends.

I am thankful for that because I wouldn't be able to deal with it clear-headedly.

I shared this with my sister; whom has suffered a great deal of heartache one can imagine. She cried and suffered but she's still standing. I have a lot of respect for her. She has inherited my mum's strength and I have my dad's calmness. We're meant to have those traits because without them, we would lose our battles.

God doesn't create perfectionists because HE is the only perfect being.

We, the humble servants would have to realize our own strengths and weaknesses. We have to use our strength to overcome our weaknesses.

May HE bless our lives always and show us signs we need to see and heed the teachings He has set in the holy book.

Things That I Love

Found this in my 2010 journal. Nothing has changed.

1. Books

2. Handbags

3. Crossword puzzles

4. Arts and crafts

5. Colorful pens

6. Travelling

7. Buy presents for friends and family

8. Organizing a vacation

9. Coordinating parties

10. Analyzing people

11. Writing in journals, blogs, etc

12. Good food

13. Cats

14. Jodi Picoult books

15. Peppermint tea

17. Shoes

I am still me.

Never Stop Learning

I don't appreciate being lied to; especially by someone I trust.

I don't know what this person has up her sleeves but she has her toes digging into the line way too many times. Sneaking behind my back and tell-tale to the bosses.

I don't think I am better than her in doing my job. I think I am just okay with what I do. There is no need for rivalry.

Today I get to know that the project that I was supposed to handle landed on her lap.

I hate to think that it has something to do with my 2-weeks absence. Then again, with my boss, anything is possible.

I don't particularly feel sad or anything like that. It's just that I think she's trying too hard to oust me. I have not done anything bad to her or her projects. Not a single thing.

I blame myself for trusting people so easily. More often than not, I ended up getting hurt.

Another lesson in life.

Words of the heart

Because it's you
I forget everything else and see only you
So why can't you see me too
Because it's you my heart lay hurt
Because it's you whom I love
I drink in the pain and ignored laughter
Because I love you more than you know
I keep drowning and drowning in sorrow
Playing it fine kills me whole
To see you everyday but i just can't hold
Feeling the love for you
Ends up burning my soul
You see me but you're not with me
You touched my hand and sent me to heaven
But to you it's not affection
I stand before you yet you see me through
I am merely a ghost to you



My take on the drama BIG.

Please Remind Me Who I Really Am

Something is wrong. It's been going on for a week or so now. Every time I heard a good song or watched an interesting story; I felt compelled to write. I don't exactly know what about - i just felt that i should write.

I tried penning my thoughts in my journal but i couldn't get the words right. I attempted typing words to my blog but endless typos killed the mood.

Fingers on the pen or the keyboard; neither were fruitful. 

Maybe i was wrong in thinking that i could quit my day job and become a full-time writer.

Because It's You

I am completely smitten by a song.
The song, the singer and the way it's sung.

I didn't quite understand the song because it's in Korean but somehow my heart felt heavy listening to it.
Heavy as if burdened by feelings of affection and pain so great that it made breathing extremely difficult.
It felt warm and fuzzy.
Soon after, it felt that my heart was crushed.
I can taste the pain in my mouth; bitter and stinging with hurt.
Yet I kept listening to it; over and over again.
A drug to my ears.

It's amazing how the song weaved pain and love.
To feel the endless affection that soared higher than the sky before pain tugged it to back to the ground.

The song is called Because It's You.
It's the original soundtrack of the Korean drama Big.
I think the original singer is Davichi.
I much prefer the version by Gong Yoo; the lead actor in that drama.

I think the song's staying in my playlist for a while.
I have pretty much deleted the rest of the songs in the playlist.

Find it in YouTube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u1nbs91UCvU

Read & Write

I've read quite a number of books & I happened to have written a lot too; but mostly rants as a way to let some steam off.


I have tried fictions, poems and serious pieces but of late, I find it hard to start writing again. Calling it a writer's block doesn't seem appropriate since I am not a 'writer' to begin with. I have all these thoughts in my head but I couldn't translate them into proper strings of words and I couldn't even put the ink on paper.


I hope this is just temporary.


I was probably thinking too much.

Signed, Sealed, To Depart Soon

It's all done. Tickets purchased. Hotel room booked. 


This is out of the norm but I really need it. With all the stress and annoying people; I really need a break from the office.


We're flying off soon for a short get-away. The kids will have to skip school for a couple of days. I have applied for leave while Deli is so damn lucky; there'll be an audit (or something like that) going on at the same dates. 


Am really looking forward to it :)