Saturday, February 26, 2005

One Hazy Saturday

This is bad. Normally, i'll be able to see Balai Felda from my cubicle but that's not the case for these past few days. Especially today. This is one hazy day!

I have a lot of things to blog about Bossy Boss but i chose not to. Why? Well, let's just say that someone helped me to see things differently. That the changes and improvements that i plan to embark on are totally for my own good. That i am capable of being the person that Bossy Boss claims i am not or ever will be. I will become that person even if i am no longer in this company. I will prove him wrong.

On a lighter note, Uncle Sam has shown great interest in my monthly entertainment magazines. He was commenting on a piece that shows engagement pictures of a celebrity. Well actually, a rather big-sized celebrity who's engaged to a good looking girl. Uncle Sam was totally against the idea. His ideal couple would be those of the same size and figures. As in, birds of the same feathers flock together. A typical male opinion. I would say, for some females too. The difference is how you voice it out. It's either, 'Euwwww.. this is such a mismatched couple' or 'He/She must be filthy rich' or 'She/he could do better'. A smaller flock will have nothing to say at all - fearing they'd have to eat their words. Oh well.

Really looking forward to spending the weekend with Deli and the kids. We'll just 'lepak' at home. Thinking of buying some cd's or dvd's and stay glued to the telly till Sunday ends.

We're spending the next weekend in Kuantan. A mini-vacation with Deli's colleagues.

March 6th 2005 will be our 6th wedding anniversary. I have a surprise for him but i won't mention it here coz Deli reads this blog. Just wait la, okay dear? Hehehe....

Kakak's verson of Kylie's I Believe In You
Kylie: Coz iiii... believe in you
Kakak: Coz iiii... winnie-the-pooh

We were trying very hard not to laugh. At least not loudly. She hardly noticed that we were laughing at her coz she kept on singing with Kylie. Adorable!

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

Makan Time!

April and May 2005 will be known as The Makan-makan months form now on!

Srikandi 8892 is planning to have a garden-party-gathering or something like that in May. We have a new committee this year. Hopefully they can attract more Srikandi to attend it this year. We had almost 80 Srikandi during the first alumni dinner at De'Palma and around 50 last 2 years at Grand Maya. I had fun organizing and being part of the committee for the two events. It was just like old times.

STFOGA is also planning for annual dinner this year. Most probably in April. My mailbox is almost full with discussions on the event. This is when u get to find your long-lost dorm mate, pet-sist, classmate and every other title we've got back then. Just got to know that Noraini Ibnu, radio presenter for RMKL is a Srikandi as well. Apart from that (those that i know) we have Norzie of TV3 and Anne Edwards of NTV7. I heard a few of the doctors made appearances in Medik TV. So there u go, a few celebrities in the alumni. This year, there won't be any color-coordinated dressing like the previous dinners. Personally, i prefer to see the colored-theme. U'll get to know their batches and will not accidently call them 'kakak' or 'adik'.

Our guest of honour for the last dinner was Tengku Puan Pahang. Can't remember which batch she was in. You can literally see her dancing and singing sportingly throughout the night. I heard it ended quite late. I had a good time on the dancing floor. Deli just shook his head in disbelief when i told him i did a little bit of boogy-shaking under the disco lights. Heheh.. He's never seen that side of me before. Nor will he ever. Some things are best kept to yourself. *grin*

Before i forget - Bossy Boss once implied that there are no such thing as being humble. List down every extra contribution (apart form your job) that u have done in your PE form. I'm not gonna put 'helping to sort medical cards' and 'help to organize vouchers' in my PE! Those are done because i wanted to help. Some people volunteered to help so that they'll get extra points or earn merits from their bosses. Me? I'll just help. I prefer not to make a havoc and announce it to the world. I've been doing that since the day i joined this company and will keep it that way. Others might want to be repaid instantly in terms of awards and others. So let them. I stand my ground.

Monday, February 21, 2005

He's leaving me..

Yup. He's leaving. Again. Maybe for 3 weeks in each April and May or for the full 2 months. Really hate this. Any suggestion from those whose husbands are overseas all the time? Cik Merry, any tips?

I thought i should have been used to this by now. He's done trips like this every year. I remembered the first time he had to go to Auckland. I missed him so much that it really, really hurts. I was still in my first trimester then and it was awfully painful living the full week by myself.

The pain has yet to subside when he had to leave for Sydney. A few days before the trip, there were some stainings and we went to see Dr Aziz. Did a scan and thankfully, the baby was fine. Had to see Dr Aziz again in a week's time to see how it goes.

And he left for Sydney. For another long week.

Eventually, the staining stopped and the week was up. I had a friend accompanied me to see Dr Aziz. The scan showed nothing more but a lump of blood. I was shocked. It was even more unfortunate that i have no shoulders to cry on.

Called him afterwards and it was the longest 5 minutes of my life. I didn't know how to break the news to him. Didn't know how to even stopped myself from crying. He kinda knew what had happened and was back in KL the day after. Had a D&C a day after his arrival.

Somehow, i know it was a girl. Don't know how but i just know it.

Four months later, i missed my regular menses. Nine months after that, i was holding a beautiful baby girl.

2004 Song of the Year - Daughters by John Mayer

I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me
Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made
So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without the warmth from
A womans good, good heart
On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world
So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

Friday, February 18, 2005

In Need of Lady Luck

Not for me but for a dear friend. Since the day we met to this very day, i have heard countless stories from her - especially unhappy ones. She had a hard time keeping a job for too long. Most of the time, due to the company's performance rather than hers. Her love affairs are of the same fate. Some were short and hurtful, some involved lies and betrayals. Her mother hated her current boyfriend but she feels that he might be the one for her. She endured 7 deaths in 2004, starting from her late father to close relatives. She just resigned from her job and am doing free-lancing at the moment. VF and i teasingly suggested that she has to perform 'mandi bunga' under 5 different bridges to rid the foul luck. We laughed at the thought but deep down, i really sympathize this nice girl.

I hope things will go well for you, dear. Just be strong. Hold on to your faith.

Deli once told me that i seemed to attract people with problems. Maybe because i can listen to their tales and that alone is enough for them. Talking about the problem is good. Solving them however, is a different story.

Well, life must go on no matter how heavy your burdens and problems are.

I'll blog again later.

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Are You Afraid of the Dark?

Mal is. Me? A bit, i guess.

We were performing Zuhur prayers when the lights went off. Emergency lights immediately turned on and it was not so dark considering the surau is at the basement. Halfway through, the emergency lights totally went off and it was pitch black. I decided to finish Zuhur prayer and think about getting away afterwards. There were 6 of us in the surau - nothing to worry about. We'll hold hands while searching for an exit.

That's when Mal decided to panic and urged to leave the place.

We were about to leave the surau when the lights turned on again. Phew! Performed Asar before finally left the surau. But the mayhem is far from over. The basement elevator was disabled so we decided to use the parking exit instead. Guess what? The exit was closed as well! Luckily, the parking entrace was not. We managed to escape without scratches. Yey!

Spoke too soon. All elevators were grounded. We're still stucked. Had to stay for another 10 mins or so before the elevators are working again.

Oh what a day.

It's singing time again! A great song by Hoobastank.


There's a pain that sleeps inside
It sleeps with just one eye
And awakens the moment that you leave
Though I try to look away
The pain it still remains
Only leaving when you're next to me

Do you know, that everytime you're near
Everybody else seems far away
So can you come and make them disappear
Make them disappear and we can stay

So I stand and look around
Distracted by the sounds
Of everyone and everything I see
And I search through every face
Without a single trace, of the person
The person that I need

Do you know, that everytime you're near
Everybody else seems far away
So can you come and make them disappear
Make them disappear and we can stay

Can you make them disappear?
Make them disappear

There's a pain that sleeps inside
Sleeps with just one eye
And awakens, the moment that you leave
And I search through every face
Without a single trace, of the person
The person that I need

Do you know, that everytime you're near
Everybody else seems far away
So can you come and make them disappear
Make them disappear and we can stay

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Where is the Love

Read Inner Landscapes and found that the blog owner lost her cat. My sympathy to you, dear. I know how it feels. I felt the same way when Chomel left us last year. Praying that Poochan will be home soon. Safely.

Mal announced that she's moving up north in May. For good. She's one of my good friends - practically a sister to me. I just know that we're not gonna be as close anymore because distance will play it's part. Of course we'll make a pact to always keep in touch and everything but it wouldn't be the same. Aisehh... it's really depressing.

Actually i have to blog about the heaty discussion with Bossy Boss last Monday but Mal's news seemed to superceed all unhappy events. Maybe i'll blog about it later.

On a lighter note:

Adik: Mummy, tengok la kaki adik ni. Ada belalalang.

Me: Belalang? Mana?

Adik: Belalalang ni. Kat kaki adik. Adik jatuh. (Pointing to some scratches on his leg)

Me: Hehehe... itu belang-belang la adik. Bukan belalalang.

Adik: Bukan belalalang??

Me: Belang, bukan belalalang. Hikhikhik...

Adik: Oo... belang. Belang la kakak. Bukan belalalang!

At this point, kakak was confused. Tak pasal-pasal kena blame pulak. Heheh....

Saturday, February 12, 2005

Singing Time

Absolutely love this song!

The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Oh Well..

It's Saturday and i'm in the office. Not complaining though coz it's the best time to update my blog and moblog. Heheh..

Got an SMS from Talam (Read: short for talam dua muka) last night. She's taking leave today for some 'CNY-visiting'. Now this is a bit of a mystery to me. Bossy Boss will definitely ask me 1001 questions for even appying for leave on a Satuday. How did she get away with CNY visiting?? Then again, this is Talam we're talking about. Anything is possible. Enjoy your leave then.

Spent CNY at home. Watched TV, slept & ate. Deli on the other hand had fun with his new toy - his new phone. Way to go, dear!

Went to Mid Valley yesterday and it was by far the most stressful event ever! Kakak got all excited in MPH looking at coloring books and everything that she couldn't even feel the urge to do her 'small-business' until she couldn't hold it any longer. Walked as fast we could to the wash room and as i was about to close the door, she had wet her pants! Called Deli and we were off to Jusco to get kakak some clothes. Found a decent dress and 5 pieces of panties for $10. Kakak complained that her shoes and socks are all wet. Detoured to get her a pair of slippers. While trying on and looking for her size, she suddenly looked panicked and before u know it, had wet her pants - again! I was furious and had a hard time trying not to scold her. I just looked at her face, chucked all the things in the stroller and literally dragged her to the wash room. We finally got to the counter - luckily the queue was not that long. The lady behind me kept on looking at the stuff i was holding and pretty soon was interrogating me on the prices, discounts, blablabla. Ayoyo!

To cool it all off, went for some ice-cream at Lecka-lecka. It was non-stop teasing for kakak - the girl who wet her pants, twice! She was totally embarassed but i'm sure whe will remember not to do this again - hopefully ever.

Went to Uptown for dinner. This was THE place for Deli and I. We were regulars back then, when we were dating. Been a while since we last had dinner at Uptown. It had changed so much.

Have been reading Harry Potter books again. I couldn't find any other book that made me wanna read it over and over again except for JK Rowling's books. That reminds me - i have to pre-order the next book at MPH. It's coming out in July. HBO showed Harry Potter and The Chamber of Secrets last night. Watched it till the end with kakak, eating Ngan Yin ground nuts. Yikes! I'm becoming a Harry Potter freak!

Not sure of where to spend the rest of the day. I can't stand staying indoor any longer. I spent 2 full days doing that. It made me dizzy. Really, really dizzy.

And oh, my apologies to Jusco Mid Valley if some of the slippers kakak tried on yesterday left some lingering scent. It was unintentional. Heheh...

Hmm.. maybe we'll go to Genting for a while. Enjoy the reast of the hols people!

Tuesday, February 08, 2005


This is one great day! The roads were clear, Deli chauffeured me to the office, the kids didn't even fuss in the morning, nice lunch though it's costly and best of all, Boss Boss is not around. Life is great. Then again, u can't get all the good things in life.

I remembered Mal telling me about one of her friends. According to her, this person is the kind of guy who couldn't care less about the do's and don'ts. And yet, he managed to get good-paying jobs and every other thing that a guy would possibly want *go figure*. She said sometimes it's unbelievable how this kind of people managed to do so well and 'survived'.

Well, i guess it's all up to you. He will always test your faith. How often would you think of Him and thank Him for all the wishes granted or how much pain can you endure and still be thankful that u're still alive. It's the basic that matter. Faith.

On a lighter note, Deli finally bought a phone. I seriously couldn't remember the model - it's Motorola though. I was busy browsing for a new phone myself. Heheh.. kidding! Then again, maybe i need a new phone. Maybe. Hmm.. *i think it's more of a 'definitely' rather than 'maybe'*

The office is as hectic as ever. VF made me send ESOS documents to Comp Sec and Finance. I thought that she jokingly asked me to send the papers for her since she did not specify whom to send them to or anything like that - until Comp Sec called and asked for them. Yikes! Sorry la dear. You know i'm not very good with names and all these stuff. I had to drag Mal along, just in case. We'll bill u later, okay!

Somebody sent me this - which is quite true and amusing.

Money isn't everything..

it can buy u a bed - but not sleep
it can buy u a clock - but not time
it can buy u a book - but not knowledge
it can buy u a position - but not respect
it can buy u medicine - but not health
it can buy u blood - but not life
it can buy u sex - but not love

So u see, money isn't everything. It often causes pain and suffering. I tell all these because i am you friend and as your friend, i want to take away your pain and suffering.

So send me all your money and i will suffer for you. Heheh.. *evil grin*

Enjoy the long hols people!

Monday, February 07, 2005

Happy New Year

Happy New Year to those celebrating Chinese New Year and Muslims worldwide for the coming 1426 Hijrah. May the new year brings loads of good things in life for all.

Deli had to work on Saturday so the kids and I stayed at home. I was too lazy to drive. Actually, i hate driving in KL. There are a lot of maniacs on the road. I drove in New York city once and it was terrifying! New Yorkers have a lot to say and 'show' when they're upset. Accompanied a friend to one of the embassies - couldn't remember which one and we decided not to park the car coz the parking fee will cost as good as 2 days worth of posh lunch. Yikes! In fact, everytime we went to NYC, we'll park at some of the Msian students residential area and took the sub. Later on, we found this cheap parking area in Manhattan, by the Hudson River. The scenery was breathtaking!

Those were the good times.

Along arrived pretty late on Saturday and left early the next day. Tak sempat borak and everything. Cuma sempat bagi all the souvenir i bought them from KK.

Deli's off for the whole week. Jealous nyer! He's in the office today to settle some stuff. Rajin betul. Tak kisahlah, janji he's chauffeuring me to work everyday.

Malasnya nak tulis lagi. The mood's totally gone. Kapish!

Later perhaps.

Thursday, February 03, 2005


Yup. That's how i feel for the past few days. Extremely tired. Tired of the never-ending work and tired of dealing with idiots. Just tired.

Told ya it's gonna be the longest 3 months of my life.

Got to learn that Bossy Boss just got an award for his excellent (not!)contribution in 2004. He was away on system migration week for goodness sake! I cannot understand how the award system works. Some people are just damn blind. So blind. Blinder than the blind mice. Whatever that means.

And oh, he just left. He came in late very day, leave earlier than me sometimes and he got an award. AHU said woking late is our culture. Okay. Whatever.

I'm in a foul mood.

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

One Busy Bee

Wow! Dah lama giler tak update my blog. Really, really lama. Kerja kat HSC memang bizi giler. The calls, the cases, blablabla plus my own assignments. Memang tak menang tangan. Sometimes, i really had to put down the headset and concentrate on what i'm doing. Pity my partner but i really had to. Kalau tidak, tak boleh nak fikir sebab staff called in all the time and i need to totally use my head to get the job done. *Sigh*

Along was laughing when i told her abount me manning HSC. 'Kena downgrade ker apa?' she said jokingly but deep down inside, i had to agree. Yes, it's good that you're exposed to all these and somehow, u learn a great deal of things but at the same time.. Well, u know what i mean. I hope.

We're embarking on Project Garden. What's with the name anyway? The best part is, Bossy Boss totally excludes me from the project! I was not in any of the meetings and agenda - which is good. Then the thought of Project Pyramid struck! I was not in any of the meetings or anything at all but i ended up maintaining the database and payroll related matters. Believe me, i shed some (read: a lot of) tears during this project. Tak payah ceritalah. Lain tahun aje. The scar is still visible. Any wound Bossy Boss had caused never totally healed anyways. Goes without saying.

PWC auditors are all over the office asking for stuff and doing their job damn too well. Now i had to figure out why MMS was short of 2 staff and the cost was down to about $57K in July 2004. The perks of working in HR. People assume u know EVERYTHING when u're in HRIS. Let's see. We had a few people coming in, resigned and yeah, a lot of them transferred. Now where's that calculator?

Just so u know, i have yet to figure that out.

The interesting part!
KK vacation was a blast! A day of shopping at KK town - Philipinne market was one of those places where u really wanna spend the whole roll of hundreds there and then. Enough said. Couldn't bear the thought of leaving the pearls, crystals, wood carvings and everything else just sitting in the shops instead of my crib. Sobs!

Nexus Resort Karambunai was a total bliss! I don't really fancy beaches but Nexus was somehow different. In so many ways! It started with the gorgeous room. The prompt room service (they sent 3 bottles of mineral water just because we had to wait for about 20 mins for the food) and of course the bathtub. This is very important when u have 2 monsters literally born with swim suits!

We spent one whole day in the water - pool and beach. Well, the kids and Deli. I had a good time reading CSI by the beach, under a hut with a packet of pistachio nuts. Deli took a pict of me - dozing off. Luckily he didn't get a shot of my face. I could have sworn i had a smile on my face!

It was a great vacation. One of those places i'm willing to come and visit again. We've been doing this annual vacation for almost 7 years now and i have to say Nexus, along with Riviera Bay Resort and Aseania Resort are worth your dosh and time.

Now, back to reality. I hate Bossy Boss.