Friday, December 18, 2009

In Good Company

My mum, aunty and niece was here for a week.

That simply translated to a week worth of good night sleep for me. I can never get a good night sleep whenever Deli's away for overseas assignment. Thank God for the pleasant company!

I didn't get to bring them to lots of places to go/shop due to the training I had to attend. We did however, shopped till we almost dropped on Saturday and Sunday.

It was not easy shopping with 2 adults and 3 kids.

We lost a bag full of newly-purchased clothes while shopping for something else. It was frustrating but we had no choice but to make peace with the fact that it might not meant to be ours. Oh well. Things happened for a reason.

Yesterday, the wonderful lot made their way back to BP. It's sad to see them go after all the fun we had. I guess time goes by so quickly when you're having fun.

Looking forward to seeing them again. Soon.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

A Refresher

Was away for training since Monday.

I was a bit hesitant to go at first - have tons of things to do in the office, especially BSE UAT that was scheduled to end on Thursday.

Almost as instantly, i found the session surprisingly interesting. The trainer was a pleasant man with a talent to hold the attention of each participant to the very end.

The course was nothing new to Pea and I. We're familiar with the processes and stuff though a little bit different in practice. The principles are somewhat the same.

Made some new friends from Touch n G and some other companies. Very friendly lot, I would say. Trainings are always the best place to make new contacts and make new friends.

All in all, the course was interesting and serves as a refresher for us since we are pursuing the PMP certification. Don't know when that will be, still.

The session ended on Wednesday with lots of new little things to apply and of course, a couple of pounds to boast from the yummy meals.

It was indeed a welcomed distraction from work. Definitely.

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

The Right Stuff

Do the right thing for you.

I have heard it often enough but never really grasped the meaning of the phrase.

What is exactly the right thing for me?
How do I know if it's right?
Does good equals to right?
Does it mean conforming to the norm? Society standards? Cultural practices?

What is the right thing, exactly?

At this moment, I am really in need of an answer.

I have been going back and forth, thinking what is the right thing to do.
Sticking to my principles? My beliefs? Making sure everyone is pleased?

I want to be happy with my decisions but that would mean possible severe impact on other matters.

How can I do what's right for me when there are so many things to consider?
How can I do the right thing for myself without being selfish?

I know that life is unfair.

I was merely hoping that it would give me a break once in a while.

Now - seems like a good time for one.

Monday, November 30, 2009

Coco's Adventure

We lost Coco Calypso @ Coco De Marco on Aidil Adha.

He must have escaped from the windows or doors at my parents' place in BP.

A kitty couldn't possibly contain his excitement to see such inviting 'playground' around the place. He must have gotten carried away by the newly-found independence and lost his tracks.

The search and rescue mission is now in the capable hands of my parents and niece.

We hope that Coco is safe, no matter where he is.

We love and miss you lots, Coco!

Monday, November 09, 2009

We Conquered!

Cogratulations to these two - they brought back green belts today!
We went out for ice-cream to celebrate the achievement.
Such a wonderful news :)
Both Deli and I are very proud of them.

Sunday, November 01, 2009

Going for Green

Monsters Inc had their exam today - they're going for the green belts.
Both did extremely well and are confident that they won't have to pay me 50 quid each.
Results will be announced in 2 weeks.
Until then.

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Swimming but about to sink

I have been very, very busy lately. More frequent long hours in the office, translating to more overtime at the daycare for the kids. That's equal to less time with them and their dad. Crap.

Banca project is about to start development work, Compliance project just had a company-wide communication about the exercise while HR project is about to sign a vendor.

All in all - I am fully booked till Q1 next year, at least.

This time around, the workload is a bit overwhelming.

I suppose it's down to sink or swim.

I'm swimming alright but in need of floatation device. Make that floatation DEVICES.

While we're at it, I need luck too - lots of it. Maybe time as well - plenty of it.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Just Me and my Mak

My mum and I spent a whole day together - we shopped, feasted on glorious food and spoilt ourselves silly.

She was in town for a couple of days and I thought it would be nice to spend a day with her, just the 2 of us. It was in a way, my gift for her birthday.

I couldn't remember the last time we did something like this. We do go out as often as time permits but most of the time, it was with the whole entourage. It was never just the 2 of us.

It was great and I wish I could do it often. Or maybe it will be fun to add my sister to the equation.

Along, me and our mak.

Happy birthday mak :)

Foot massage to end our day out

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Fighting to Breathe

I read in a magazine somewhere that job insecurity deserves much more attention than unemployment.

Until you are in that situation, you have no idea how true this is.

At this point of time, my colleagues and I are in limbo, to put it mildly.

There's no telling if we or our department are still significant to the division or company.

A lot of rumors are flying, a lot of assumptions are circling the atmosphere.

To tell you the truth, it's a bit stuffy in here.

The room is full of air but it's damn hard to breathe.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Game Over

It has been an eventful 11 days.

Tomorrow, work resumes.

I planned to finish reading The Lost Symbol (checked!), Bill Bryson's Down Under (half-way through), watch Angels and Demon on dvd (didn't happen) and browse through Jobstreet (didn't happen either) during those days or at least the last 5 days of it.

Oh well, one can only plan. Laundry and napping got in the way, most of the time.

So tomorrow, it's back to my desk at work. Clearing off what I am expected to. I am quite done doing more than I should. Morale is hitting rock bottom at the moment. That's another entry altogether.

Hey, why are my sentences short?

Oh yeah, must be the lazy bug nipping on my arse.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

The Lost Symbol

My date with Robert Langdon was not as I imagined. I was hoping for a thrilling experience with countless of unexpected twists. Unfortunately it was lacking both the thrill and the unexpected.

I am a bit disappointed.

Probably I had my hopes set a tad bit higher than usual. Then again, with all the publicity and the super-tight security imposed on the process of producing the book, I expected an excellent product.

Instead, it was a letdown.

It was not exactly a page-turner like Da Vinci Code or Angels and Demons.

However, this is a personal feel. I have said it before, taste is a tricky substance.

Dan Brown is always a good read. I just don’t think The Lost Symbol is as good as his other books.

His next book, maybe?

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Happy 9th Birthday

Happy 9th Birthday to the little princess!

Friday, September 18, 2009

Happy 8th Birthday!

Happy Birthday Haziq!!
Love you lots!!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

About A Babe

Zura called me earlier today to inform that she’s warded in APSH.

A year ago, we met at the same place – our beds next to each other. I wrote this piece about her but didn’t publish it for a reason I couldn’t even recall.

Tuesday came and a new patient filled the empty bed beside me. She drew the curtains surrounding her bed almost immediately and stayed on her bed for quite some time. We did not speak until the next day.

Took us less than 10 minutes to get acquainted and immediately hit it off.

Zura is one chatty babe. She’s the same age as Ainil but found comfort in calling her kakak. It’s a miracle that she didn’t call me auntie, given the age difference. Hahah.

We were the 3 musketeers. We’d move from one bed to another, talking, laughing and literally owned the four-bedded ward. There’s another patient in the same ward but somehow she preferred to be left alone. I suppose four is a crowd.

With Zura around, our conversations became more open. If it’s a reality show, half of our talks would be taken over by the censoring beeps. When Zura’s mom and siblings came to visit, they ended up in our quarters instead of hers. They were as friendly as she was, if not more.

Breaks my heart to know that she’s in the hospital again, from the same illness. I am going to see her tonight and see what I can do to ease her pain a little.

Saturday, September 05, 2009

A Loss

We lost an uncle this morning at 2am.

I could still see his face, smiling kind and warmly to us. He's a fine man, a great father to his children.

My condolences to his family and my cousins - Reen, Rina, kak Liza, kak Leha and the rest.

We made plans to visit him comes raya but i guess He has his own plans for Uncle Harun.


Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Merdeka Surprise

I couldn’t believe it.

A piece that I wrote on Children & Education was published for the whole world to see. They have not officially launched the site but I get to browse through the final draft for consent, earlier today.

The email was sent on Merdeka Day. I’ve had a taste of liberation. –smiles-

Saturday, August 29, 2009

A Little Rant

I am going through a phase.

I don’t care that much about work anymore because it’s apparent the big bosses are not. Two of my good friends are leaving the company and if you have been following my writing, you would know that I would take the longest time to befriend someone. Here we go again.

I have been writing a lot lately – poems and just rants. Somehow I felt that I have this desperate need to prove myself as a writer. Not necessarily a good one. Just a writer.

Somehow i dont feel like posting them here. Maybe later.

p/s: Epi, congratulations :)

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

A Little Unwell

We spent the whole of last weekend away from the city. Well, at my parents’ to be exact. I didn’t realize how much I needed that little break until I was physically there.

The water was freezing cold and yet I couldn’t get enough of it. I don’t recall having tap water that cold in the city. It was surprisingly cool and refreshing. Just what I need to lift the pressure off my shoulders and wherever else they might be sitting on.

The company was even better; in fact it was just perfect. Everybody managed to make some time to drop by though not together at once. I got to see my nephew, all better from an episode of pneumonia and also my niece whom suffered a broken arm almost a month ago. The little darlings made excellent recovery and seemed to be enjoying the extra company. I feel bad for not being able to be by their hospital beds but I suppose that’s the price I have to pay for being a million miles away from them. All of my siblings are a stone’s throw away from my parents. I am always the odd one, always the furthest from the family in distance but always the closest at hearts. I guess I’m not done proving to them that I am independent. – Smiles –

By the time we got back to the city, my temperature was off the charts. I couldn’t really sleep the night before – the coughing was worse than ever and I had a few minutes of breathing difficulty but no fever. So when we reached home, put away all the luggage and Coco (the cat), we wasted no time and headed to the hospital. The waiting room was full to the brim. So full that some patients (or their companies) had to loiter around the waiting area. We were there for an hour and a half before being summoned to see the doctor. He dispensed a long list of things to keep check of; blood sugar level, fever temperature and so on. We waited another hour for the bill and meds; that by the end of it all we were so hungry and headed to GE Mall for a quick bite.

Little did I know that the dinner was the last of my proper and prosper meal.

Then after, I retched whatever food I had and couldn’t take anything except toasts. I could only muster to eat 5 pieces of toast the whole of yesterday, apart from gallons of water. Today is no different; I had 4 pieces of toast, gallons of water and nothing else. I feel so weak but couldn’t force myself to take anything more than that. I just had a few pieces of chicken nuggets and already my tummy’s behaving a bit weird. Let’s hope that I’m not going to waste these as well. I have already lost 2 kg, not that I’m complaining but I need to eat real food. Sigh.

I have been missing work for 2 days and a lot has happened in the office. I am scheduled to participate in a conference-call to Regional Office tomorrow but I don’t think I can make it. I plan to have a light and easy day tomorrow.

We’ll see how it goes.

Oh by the way, FIL is in the hospital; warded because of his diabetic condition. I have not had the chance to visit him with me being sick and all. Probably I’ll pay a visit during the weekends. Deli on the other hand has been going to the hospital every day, on behalf of us all. Our prayers for him; for his speedy recovery and better health condition.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Introducing Nini's Little Haven

Yesterday was the official launch of Nini's Little Haven - a shop blog i have created to feature pre-loved as well as brand new children apparel with reasonable price.

Do visit the site, if you have the time :)

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Oh What A Sunday!

Sunday is often sort of a bittersweet thing for me.

It still my day off but towards the end of it, annoyance kicks in without fail.

We planned to do justice to our bodies and run the extra mile at the newly opened park near Ampang Point. Have been wanting to go there for weeks but giving up the extra slumber time on weekends was way too big of a sacrifice to make. Last night however, we were really determined to go. Kakak had even planned on what to wear.

Alas, it rained heavily this morning. What a shame (or yehey??).

Got a call by mid-morning from a colleague of mine to say that she saw me in NST for an interview about I*G survey boxes. Did the interview almost a month ago and didn't expect it to be published so soon. -grin-

Headed for CapSquare by mid-day for Times Book Fair. Spent a few hours there with excellent haul as always. I didn't realize CapSquare is so small. Maybe it's bigger than i thought - i didn't actually venture the place that much. Some other time, perhaps.

The kids had their taekwondo class in the afternoon and came back with great news - both passed their tests and can now brand yellow belts with green markings. Both are relieved to not be paying me the 50 quids each. Heheh.

Congratulations to both of you!

To celebrate the joyous occassion, kakak decided to have Johnny's Steamboat for dinner while adik was simply delighted with the idea of eating out. When we got there, the place was full of patrons with a queue to boot. Both of them decided to raid Nasi Lemak Antarabangsa instead and the parents gladly towed behind.

It was a beautiful affair until the waitress decided to spill 2 glasses of drinks on me.

There i was, my jeans soaked (commencing exaggeration) in iced lemon tea and lime syrup. To make it worse, i looked like i peed in my pants. Urgh!

Cleaning and mopping took place and we resumed dinner albeit the incident.

Yes, it was an accident and yes, nobody was hurt except for my poor jeans. I would think that it's only right for the restaurant to at least be generous on the bill. When i had to pay the full amount - which i did, i walked straight to the restaurant owner and gave him a piece of my mind.

It's good enough that i didn't make a scene when the accident happened. It was after all, the waitress' fault. It's probably her first few days on the job but that doesn't take away the fact that she has to be careful when serving drinks. She spilled 2 glasses of drink - both glasses were on the tray that she was balancing while serving a drink to adik, for goodness sake!

So. The guy apologized and told the manager to ensure that i get discounts the next time i'm there. That'll be in a very loooong time, i suppose.

Anyways, it's a lesson learned for everyone.

I didn't get to do the grocery but i did get to tell adik to do the same - stand your ground and don't let anyone walk all over you.

All in all, a good Sunday indeed. Oh well.

The Good, The Bad and The Anxiety

Am back from watching Harry Potter: The Half Blood Prince.

Personally, i didn't quite enjoy it for various obvious reasons. Let's not go into details, shall we?

The only good thing in the movie was Harry's character. He's lighten up a bit - that's a great change for him.


The site is finally up and ready to be revealed. To be fair, i will do the launch on Monday to all my readers and the rest of the network of friends, colleagues and relatives.

Am nervous and excited. Butterflies flying and jumping up and down in my tummy. You know the feeling.

Until then. -pray hard-

Friday, July 24, 2009

Almost All Set

The site is ready and we're good to go.

I just need to upload pictures and we will be launching it real soon.

Stay tuned for more update.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

The Sliver of Light

I think I know what to do.

I need to start on it soon. Good ideas are often kidnapped and robbed of its authenticity.

I have found a partner in crime.

The crimes will be happening real soon. Soon as in next week, maybe.

Intrigued? That's the whole intention.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Einstein @ Work

I have been thinking. Much more than usual.

I think it's about time for me to make a change. The what and how are still unclear but something is about to happen. How soon, I am not sure.

I need luck on my side.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

The Contemplative Me

You like to think of yourself as a fairly modest person. And it's true that you don't talk yourself up... but you're also pretty happy with who you are.You are a pretty cautious person. You look before you leap, and you don't leap often. There's a bit of a wild child within you, but it doesn't get out often.
You are a somewhat open minded person, but deep down you're fairly conservative. You don't like trying new things very much. And if you do find something new you like, you stick with it.
You are a natural multitasker. You feel alive when you're doing more than one thing at a time.You are a serious and contemplative person. You definitely do your own thing in life.
- Ice Cream Personality Test from Facebook -
Oh my. It described me to the core..

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Of An Eventful Week

It's been a hectic one and a half week.

The daycare center was closed from July 1st by the Department of Health. Four infants contracted hand, foot and mouth disease (HFMD) and the premise was turned upside down with cleaning and the sort until the relevant department advised that it was safe to resume business on the 6th.

I took half day leave for each of the day the center was closed to chauffer the kids to/from schools. It was a very tiring affair, braving through lunch-time traffic and finding lunch spots for the picky eaters. Despite the complaints, i gained some pounds from joining the kids' heavenly lunches. Dang.

On a different note, adik has been sick since Monday. His temperature roller-costered until he got really sick on Wednesday. The good doctor said that it's nothing to be worried about. That's a relieve.

On Thursday however, he was sick again after school and i had to rush back from the office to get him. He slept the whole after after downing his meds and his temp dropped. We brought him to see the doctor again and he was cleared for dengue and the sort. A big relieve indeed but constant monitoring is essential to really ensure his state of health.

As if the episodes are not enough to keep me on my toes, i had to save the demsel in distress who missed the bus. Again, i braved through lunch-time traffic, on a Friday. It was freakin tiring, i tell ya. I was too tired to nag at her by the time i reached the school. Sigh.

My heart goes out to my niece Kaisa, whom left arm is broken from a fall. She's wearing a cast and sling, though the sling is now nowhere to be found - according to her mom.

Also to my nephew, Dhani who's in the hospital undergoing physio and making friends with the nebulizer. I have seen adik went through the same ordeal when he was just a baby. I can only imagine what my brother's going through right now.

I plan to make a trip down south for respective visits to the poor babies.

Kakak has a class today and both of the kids will have their taekwondo exam next week. They're going for green belts and have been practising hard for the exam. I did mention that they would need to pay me $50 each if the fail to bring back green belts. Fees are non-refundable - so it has to be worth the money i'm paying. Heheh.

So most probably i'll make that trip after everything's settled.

Meanwhile, let me just enjoy the weekend.

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

Young Socialites

The young socialites appeared in Kosmo newspaper today.

Anyone has a copy of the newspaper? I couldn't find one for the album. Bummer.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Saying Goodbye

Saying goodbye is never easy. Especially to those that matters in your life.

This week, I am saying goodbye to a dear friend and confidante - Yana. She's off to a 2 years stint around the globe. Hong Kong would be her first stop.

Dinner @ Chili's KLCC with Yune and Yana

Leaving the car park.. bye dear..
I hope to see you real soon!

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Socialites in the Making

Whoa. I didn't realize it's been weeks since the last entry. Been extremely busy and lazy.

A couple of weeks back, the kids joined ING's Go Green Camp at Lake Garden. They were excited to get involved in the activites and mingling around with a new set of friends.

Adik and his usual doa recital in the lift

Kakak lining up before getting on the bus

Adik queuing along with the rest
The week after that, both of them apeared in the Star, making their debut in the news.
Kakak launching the rocket while adik is pictured in the bottom left.

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

The Much Needed Break

Had a short getaway last 2 weeks. We couldn't fit in a more elaborate vacation due to my and Deli's hectic schedule.

Apart from having some time off, I was also on an assignment. Took loads of picts to be submitted to my photography teacher. I still need to learn more, judging by the shots I took. Adehh... heheh.

I'll let the picts talk for themselves.

The majestic hotel interior
Another shot of the hotel
Happy kids having breakfast
Where I put up my feet and read
A rainbow of beach balls
Battered looking canoes
An iron bird way up in the sky
Scenic lagoon late in the evening

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

On A Roll

I must be a tad bit crazy - I finished reading My Sister's Keeper about an hour ago.

Took me 3 days to finish the book. I didn't need caffeine to get me to the very last page. The story itself took care of that.

I must say that this book is now one of my favorite. An unexpected ending, an exellent turn.

I am starting another book of Picoult's called A Perfect Match.

Catcha later!

Sweet Victory

I have been working on it for weeks and finally, last Saturday - VICTORY!


Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Another Gem Off The Shelves & Into My Hands

I am reading My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult (who else... hehe).

It's amazing that I couldn't put the book down and literally glued to it since the odd page of numero uno.

Started reading the book on Monday and am now half way through it. Gosh. I have got to slow down.

I am a picky reader and have set, sometimes insane standard of excellent reading material. I know that taste is a very tricky substance, so please don't take my words as your gauge in determining a good read. We are after all, of different moulds and preferences.

Now back to the book. I'm not a very good narrator, so bear with me, if you please.

I am impressed with the character Anna who's torn between keeping her sister alive, submitting to her parents' wishes and sticking up for herself. I am awed at how she could think of what she wanted for herself and how she's struggling to balance hope and dissapointment.

I don't even know if I could feel such combo of emotions at the age of 13. Let alone doing what she did. Amazing, amazing character indeed.

I am looking forward to finishing the book by Saturday.

Am hoping to get and start reading Handle with Care this weekend.

Oh, by the way, My Sister's Keeper will hit the theaters in UK and US on June 26th. Hope it screens in KL soon!

p/s: Happy birthday to Dol :)

Saturday, May 23, 2009

On Angels & Demons - The Book

Have just finished reading it.

I couldn't belive that I managed to finished it in 5 days. Then again, it's an impossible book to put down once you start reading.

The book was simply A.W.E.S.O.M.E.

Now, I need to find the time to catch it on the silver screen.

Monday, May 18, 2009

Reading Pleasure

I’m not well.

Have been so since last week. I don’t think it’s the infamous Swine Flu coz I don’t bear all the symptoms. If I do, I will definitely raise an alert. -wink-

Have a couple of docs to do but I’m just not in the mood.

I’m in the mood to just put my feet up and read Angels & Demons. Thought I should read the book before watching the movie. Have no idea when I’ll be able to finish it – it’s one darn thick book!

I was actually looking for the illustrated version but am not sure if there’s any. I had the illustrated version of Da Vinci Code and it helped a lot in understanding the story better. I remembered suffering major pain – head, for the information overload and hand, for holding on to the heavy book for too long. It’s worth the pain because it’s one of my all-time favorite. The book seldom sits on the shelves – it’s always somewhere in my bedroom, waiting to be read or skimmed through.

As any other adaptation, most of the time the movie will not be as good as the book but that’s not the whole point.

Da Vinci Code is a film I’ve watched over and over and never get tired of drinking in the details and the rush of discovering hidden truth. I am hoping Angels & Demons would be as interesting. I am only on the 65th page and I’m already anxious to discover the twist and turns. I can't wait to see how the movie would turn out.

By the way, adik was very upset to discover that I didn’t buy him a book he picked up (and later, set on the shelves) at the bookshop yesterday. He came to my room earlier this morning looking for it and was close to tears when he learned about the incident. I was too busy looking for Angels & Demons that I forgot to check with him about getting the book. Kakak and him picked up 2 more books from their favorite series and I seriously thought he’s not interested in the first book anymore.

Poor baby. I plan to make it up to him. Soon.

It’s always a dilemma – how do you instill reading interest when all the books are so darn expensive? My kids love to read but books from their favorite lines costs $14 a piece. They’d normally go for a book each but when they find titles they have yet to own, it’s like finding treasure while digging sand on the beach. The excitement, the thrill and the mounting hopes are simply priceless.

Let’s not forget that the parents are avid readers too. Each time we set foot into a bookstore, each one of us would at least get a book or magazine. It’s either the kids or the parents – someone needs to practice self restrain. Can it be the kids? Can it, please? Heheh.

I have just redeemed $20 from MPH last month. At the rate I’m going, I’ll be getting more cash vouchers soon!

Maybe we should have a bookshop of our own and read the books ourselves. Sigh.

Wouldn’t it be nice if you could just lay back and read? Maybe near a beach or somewhere peaceful.

That’ll be a total bliss.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

A Merry Weekend

It's easily one of my favorite weekend.

Most of my family were at my place for the weekend and Deli's back from Budapest.

Best of all, I get to celebrate Mother's Day with my mom and my sister - a very rare occasion.
Lots of chat, food and love - the best combination ever.

Shopping with Kaisa
Mother's Day dinner @ Chili's KLCC

Thursday, May 07, 2009

Of Strange Dreams

There were 2 trucks and there was my car, wedged in between. There was not much space between all 3 vehicles and I thought I’d feel much better if I could get away from the little domino. I was a bit hesitant at first, fearing that I might hit the truck in front of me but annoyed at the same time by the unnecessary mess.

I didn’t know what happened but as I was overtaking the truck, I was hit by the truck behind me. The crash sent my car spinning away and I remembered feeling numb followed by indescribable pain down my legs. The last thing I remembered was a pair of hands pulling me out of the car to safety before my car exploded.

The next thing I know, I was lying on the hospital bed. Every single bone throbbing with excruciating pain, every single limb felt like they were shredded into tiny pieces. I opened my eyes, trying to look for a familiar face for comfort but could not find any. I was alone. All alone with no idea if I was missing any body parts or they still function like those of a normal, healthy person.

Everything was a blur – memory and sight.

Then I drifted back to sleep. Worry nesting deep at the pit of my stomach.


I was driving back from work, taking the same route I always do. The traffic was not as smooth as I wished it were but that’s just the way it is. I stopped to give way to a cab with the right indicator turned on at a T-junction.

As the cab driver swerved his car to the right, a lady on a motorbike sped through in front of it. There it was - the stunned cab driver, the shocked and annoyed-looking lady, thrown off her bike and a part of the bike, underneath the cab.

All I could say was ‘Oh my God!’

Fortunately, the lady escaped unscathed while a Good Samaritan helped to pull her bike from underneath the cab. Both the cab driver and the lady moved their respective vehicles to the roadside so not to block the traffic.

I drove off, slightly trembling from shock. The poor lady might have suffered a different fate. She could be badly hurt or worse, she could be dead.

I couldn’t stop thinking about the incident. The questions of 'what if' lingered and tasted bitter at the back of my throat.

If only I didn’t let the cab pass in front of me.
If only I acted fast enough and honk the cab driver, he would have stopped and avoid the bike.

If only. Then again, that’s all we could think about. The what if’s.


You see, the first story was actually my dream. The second one was a real incident.

The reason why I am noting all this down is because of the fact that this is not the first time. It’s not the first time I am getting hints, signs, leads, whatever you want to call it, to a real life scenario.

The first was when my grandfather passed away.

I was warded at the hospital for a minor procedure and dreamt that my grandfather who was then in the hospital, left us all. The next day, my mom called me and conveyed the disheartening news.

The second time it happened was when I had a dream about death. How it’s coming to claim my life and how unready I was to meet my creator. The following day, my sister called and informed that my closest cousin died of breast cancer.

So today when I woke up, the first thing I did was texted Deli (who’s away on overseas business trip) to check if he’s okay. He didn’t promptly answer my message, probably still sleeping, judging by the 5 hours time difference.

I was extremely careful on the road – chauffeuring the kids to school and making my way to the office. Thank God, nothing bad happened.

I made sure I crossed the road where there’s pedestrian crossing. When the traffic light refused to work during lunch, I stayed close to E for extra protection while crossing the road. I’m pretty sure Malaysians are more attentive to foreigners compared to locals.

Little did I know that it’s not about me. The mystery of life continues to amaze me.

I don’t know if I’d ever feel comfortable having this sort of dreams again. Maybe yes, maybe no. I seriously have no idea.

Until then, life goes on.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Introducing - the Yellow Belts


Both adik and kakak are now yellow belts.

Congratulations to them both :)

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Books Galore

We went to Amcorp Mall on Saturday, following a tip from a colleague of mine about a great bookshop.

It's really great and cheap!

You'll see prices as low as $17 for novels and shelves upon shelves of childrean books. The kids literally sulked for not being able to buy 3 books each.

They didn't carry Jodi Picoult books (or I couldn't find them?) so I settled with some true-stories instead. I had to stop looking at the titles and practiced some self restrain. Otherwise, I might end up with baskets upon baskets of books.

Adding to the purchase, they're giving away a free book for every $20 spent. We ended up with 5 free books. They were of limited titles and mostly of not-so-popular authors. Kakak was happy that most of the books are about horses. She has developed so sort of fascination towards horses lately. I'm just happy that she's not so ga-ga over Barbie anymore. Thank God.

If you are interested, the book shop is at the same level as Kenny Rogers, located near the escalator.

I'm just happy with my books :)

Friday, April 24, 2009

MAC Pavilion - Oh so rude!

Earlier this evening, Yana and I had a little GNO with a very specific goal in mind – to shop!

Yana wanted to get a black bag, a croc shoes and a MAC lipstick/gloss. My part in the fun game was to talk her into buying stuff, make the best choice and unofficially offer her my hands and shoulder to sling or carry the day’s catch. Or catches? Heheh..

I was not looking for anything in particular and had no issue playing the role of BFF for the evening.

The quest to get a MAC lipstick/gloss was supposed to be the easiest. Instead, we were in for an unexpected and unforgettable experience.

I didn’t know if we looked like we couldn’t afford anything they’re selling or that I was wearing just t-shirt and jeans. Maybe it’s the fact that we are locals and deserves no attention or that we didn’t pick up a lot of stuff from the shelves.

My not-so-classy looking t-shirt

The cashier walked a few feet away from the counter and started re-arranging stuff while continued on ignoring us, standing like idiots in front of the cash register.

She knew we were there. I could see that she was watching us, probably scared that we might steal a thing or two from the counter.

Yana and I stood for a good 5 to 8 minutes before someone actually came to us and asked if we needed help. Well, duh!

Yana launched to her bitchy mode and started yakking in excellent English that left the cashier and the salesperson baffled. They apologized, not profusely but that didn’t stop Yana the Warrior Princess from yakking even more.

The cashier was upset, judging by the way she shoved the bills Yana handed her into the cash register. I hope she got blisters while doing so.

My catch for the day.

Funny thing is, that was not our first time. We seriously think that they looked down on people like us. Let’s face it; a customer is still a customer regardless where they’re from, how they dressed or even if they didn’t buy a thing from your little shop. A satisfied customer might lead to more sales. A disgruntled customer might blog about the experience and smear mud on your business!

By the way, it was MAC at Pavilion.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Quest for the Yellow Belt

Today, the kids had their first taekwondo exam. If things go well, they will be branding yellow belts next week.

Deli and I stayed to witness the whole exercise. We were as nervous as they were! Heheh.

Some pictures of the champions in action.

Till then - haiyah!!

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Red Eye

I've had red and teary eyes for a couple of days, each lasted around an hour or two.

Today however, it lasted for 6 freaking hours! I couldn't stop rubbing my right eye and kept checking the mirror for any alien stuff that might landed in it.

The freaky look I donned today. Pict from Wikipedia.

Tried napping in hope to reduce the swelling but it didn't work. Tried rinsing it with Optrex - not working either.

To make it worse, I have this wierd thing about poking my eyes. It's a big no-no. So there I was feeling a little hopeless and not knowing what to do before deciding to see the doctor.

After a series of questions, the good doctor told me that I have something called Allergic Conjunctivitis. He suspected that it was the reaction to the cat's mites of the sort. Need to google more about that later.

I did a little bit of grooming for the cats around noon and was all teary eyed a couple of hours after that.

My poor four-legged-babies will have to be groomed by some other people from now on. By other people, I mean adik and kakak. Heheh.

I'm off to pop some pills and give the eye-drops a try. Aiya-yai.. wish me luck!

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Switching to Fighting Mode

I thought things are better than it first started.

I've made peace with the task assigned.

I attended the Compliance training with a cheery mood.

Peoples say that good things won't last long (or forever?).

After lunch, I was told that Jay has tendered his resignation. I was sad to lose such talent but at the same time, happy for his soul. I have told the Dutchman over and over that I think Jay will not be content staying with nothing much, let alone challenging things to get his hands on. It's a waste to have such enthusiasm but nowhere to channel it to.

After the training, I was told that we (Jay, the Dutchman and I) were to perform clerical work at an operations department for 3 freaking months instead of the assignment of proposing process improvements in 1.5 months.

By clerical I meant removing staples from proposal papers and stuffing papers into brown folders.

So there I was, shocked to learn the news while the Dutchman's cursed and swore fluently.

Yes, I am really, really upset right now.

I have every right to feel used and betrayed.

I have every right to march into HR office and talk about this though I know they will not do a thing.

I have every right to escalate this matter to the CEO, if need to.

Then again, I must have done something really bad to be deserving such fate.

Monday, April 06, 2009

The Champions & Patients

The kids had their school's 34th sports carnival on Sunday. This year, both of them were on the relay team while adik had another event of running solo for the 75m sprint.

The opening ceremony.
My champions.

They both bagged a medal each. The more reason for me to get another glass cabinet real soon to house their winnings.

They were very reluctant to go to their taekwondo class in the afternoon. Both were too exhausted to move but the thought of their upcoming exam injected some enthusiasm.

So today, both of them are at home - with a fever.

Mummy chose to be at home with them instead of work.

Daddy decided to be sick as well, claiming to be affected by the epidemic. Heheh..

Tuesday, March 31, 2009


Today's not a very good day. The only thing I'm looking forward to is to get home and see my kids and their dad.

Everthing else doesn't really matter.

The boss was upset with us. No, upset was an understatement. He was fuming mad at us for the email that we sent out.

He told us to ask questions - so we did (in email).

He freaked out when we asked if there's a specific reason why the staff selected are Malay.

He freaked out because we copied the email to HCD.

He freaked out because HCD forwarded the email to his boss.

He freaked out because his boss called him and asked about it.

He freaked out and then screamed at us.

Oh well.

Monday, March 30, 2009


Hiatus. A mini hiatus. Obviously for good reasons.

Things are so screwed up at work. So bad that I don't even know where to start, what to think or even why I'm all tangled up in this mess.

I can't begin to describe the feeling.

Anger. Disappointment. Betrayed. Fooled.

It all seemed like a joke. One big, cruel joke.

People take us - my fellow friends and I, for granted. They might even think we are so darn stupid that they can literally walk all over us, doing all sort of experiments on us and chuck us aside when the strings they pulled no longer work the way they want them to.

The economic crisis is not an axcuse to distort or mistreat a staff. I have heard enough of 'be thankful you still have a job' or 'we have no choice but to do this'.

There will always be choices. You just need to put a little bit of effort finding them. There is nothing absolute in the universe. Everything has disadvantages, loopholes and imperfections.

There's always light at the end of the tunnel, they say.

Only that this is a freakin long tunnel and I am not seeing any hint of light at this point of time.

You can say you understand what I'm feeling or what I'm going through, but unless you are in my shoes, I dare say that you don't understand what I feel. Until then, limit your pity to yourself.

Leave me alone and let me be bitter for a while.

Monday, March 23, 2009


Deli and I stayed the whole one and a half hour of the kids' taekwondo class yesterday.

Adik pretty much knows his moves while kakak - well, kakak being kakak, was a bit playful and forgot some of the kicks and punches when the teacher asked.

The kids are getting ready for their first test on April 19th. That's 3 weeks away and 2 more classes to revise and perfect their moves.

I have not seen the young lad they had for a teacher yesterday. He looked like a Malay - features and skin but he didn't seem to be fluent in the mother language. As he walked nearer, I noticed his name sewn on his black belt and he's definitely not a Malay lad. He carries a Chinese and Indian name, assuming from a mixed marriage.

He looked a bit like Zizan Nin - the reason why I noticed him in the first. Heheh.
So. Until the next class. Haiyahh!!!

Friday, March 20, 2009

Man Down

Think I'm catching a flu.

Man.. the weekend is here and I am gonna be sick. Been popping Sandox since yesterday. I seriously hope I'll be well soon. Adeh...

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

All Things Minty

I absolutely love peppermint - tea, ice-cream, whatever.

However, I noticed that Dilmah peppermint tea is extremely difficult to find and this is my absolute fave. Found it a couple of times in Cold Storage and Ampang Grocer but so far, that was it.

If you ever come across this brand and flavor, be a darling and let me know, will ya?
Thanks :)
p/s: Thanks to Ina for the effort. Love ya!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Cats on the Prowl

School holiday is here.

The kids are occupied with games (console, pc, etc) and books. The parents are relieved from constant ironing of school uniforms and endless nagging of revision and homework. The cats are tensed from stretched hours of being chased around the house.

Kakak and her precious Lily.

Baby Cat taking a breather.

My handsome and macho boy, lounging away.

Note: Pictures are fresh from the cam.

Monday, March 16, 2009

The Good, The Bad and The In-Between

I didn't feel like going to work today. Add shoulder pain to that and walah - I got a day off.

Am still suferring from the massage last Saturday. It's getting worse - I could feel the pain with every swing of my right arm. It's painful even when I half-lifted my arm.

I was prescibed pain killer, muscle relaxant and some cream to be applied to the sore muscle.

I was supposed to have a meeting with the Dutchman today to discuss performance appraisal for 2008. Truth be told, I no longer believe in the system. I have done fighting for a good rating. Don't even get me started on the reason why or the fact that I am fighting a useless battle.

Oh, by the way, we bitched about the bosses during our lunch date last week. Heheh. Been a while since we last did that. He did mention about the promotion but I'm not holding my breath. If I get it, alhamdulillah - it's a bonus and have been long due. If I don't get it, it's fine as well. I am still under the Union and will be protected if the company decided to exercise their option to retrench the employees.

Have I not mentioned silver lining often enough?

Sunday, March 15, 2009

A Free Weekend - Not So!

I thought we could just spend the weekend at home and do nothing else but clean the house.

As usual, that didn't happen.

Adik and Deli were both down with fever. The boys went to see the good doctor for a bit before Deli noticed that adik is growing a new tooth under a loose one. He had a couple of them, about to bid farewell to the gum. I planned to bring him to the dentist on Monday coz he has taekwondo on Sunday.

Looks like the tooth decided to make its debut sooner than we expected.

My boy came home with 2 missing teeth! Adorable. Heheh.

Fever and missing teeth are no excuse to not have a good lunch. We had Indonesian food and it was absolutely fantastic.

After lunch, kakak suggested that we all go for foot massage. We've been frequenting this place at Ampang Point and kakak loved it there.

Adik somehow was not interested to join in the sessions before but decided to give it a try this time. Kakak fell asleep halfway though while Deli, stayed awake the whole time. Usually, he'd be in slumberland after the first 10 minutes. Adik on the otherhand was trying hard to be civil and not laugh. Heheh. Cute.

I ended up with an extra session of shoulder massage. I was told that the pain on my shoulder will be much worse if not treated. Have been living with the pain for quite a while and would normally ignored the pain, which can be quite bad at times.

The whole ordeal was a torture. I was in excruciating pain - seriously. I almost cried. Almost.

We had subway for dinner before heading home.

So there. Not so free as I wanted it to be but I'm not complaining. I spent it with the people I love the most. What's there to not like?


Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Dazed & Confused

I don’t know if I should feel sad or mad. Or not feel anything at all.

Yesterday a manager in my department assigned some tasks to my staff. I was surprised that I was not in the picture when she did that. I would think as a supervisor, I have the right to know of any assignment dumped to my direct reports.

Well that particular incident made me think of something else. I was thinking about my unit – if it even exists after the new re-org. I am assuming it still is a function in the team, since there was no announcement saying otherwise.

A domino effect is about to begin.

No BA team, no BA Team Manager position required, no promotion, not much of anything at all.

This is just great.

The Dutchman asked me to join him for lunch tomorrow to talk about stuff. I wonder if it’s about all these.

Oh well.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Doing the Things You Love

It was one heck of a weekend. A merry event, a family outing and basket upon basket of laundry!

Anyone interested in making extra quid by doing my laundry?
Anyhow, kakak was again the flower girl for the event. I have lost count of how many times she’s been one. I particularly liked the one where she played flower girl for Yana’s wedding last year.

The kids in action - Yana's wedding, 2008

We stayed at the hotel for a couple of nights. On the second day, my parents and Along’s family attended the event and by 4pm decided to spend the night with us instead of driving back to BP. Booked a room for them and made a trip to Tesco for extra clothing for everyone. Bought food from Tesco food court and was pleasantly surprised that everything was yummylicious.

Had an early morning on Monday and headed to Kompleks PKNS for breakfast. Again, we were surprised by the quality and taste of the food served. I guess it’s our luck to be finding food we loved and enjoyed. We just love stuffing our faces silly anyways. Heheh.

Stopped by MIL after a quick shopping spree before going our separate ways. The kids had a hard time saying goodbye, as always. They traded plans for the coming school break and I somehow heard the word ‘Singapore’ mentioned a couple of times. We’ll see about that.

Oh before I forgot, adik received awards for achievement in 2 different subjects in Primary 1 (2008). The prize giving ceremony was held last Saturday. We are so very proud of him. We hope that both adik and kakak will continue to excel in sports and academic in years to come.

Kakak is now in the hockey team – which reminds me that I have to get her shin guards. Adik on the other hand is doing great in taekwondo and been fretting over missing classes for 2 weeks in a row because of Epi’s wedding.

I just hope that they’ll do well in everything they’re involved in and not worry about winning or losing too much. They need to just do their best and love what they’re doing.

Success, is getting to do the things you love – Wise words of Jason Mraz.

Friday, March 06, 2009

Happy 10th Anniversary

To my dearest friend,

This journey is long and may not always be peachy but we'll get through it with trust, faith and love.

Here's to a 10 wonderful years and more to come!